I don't usually post on here, I usually just use this name to read and comment on fics or something, but I just have to get this out. I feel like nobody in my family ever wants to be around me, or just plain don't like me. Ever since my cousin's been here I've started to realize how much they like him and talk to him, but how little i actually get to talk to them myself. I know nothing about them and they don't ever try to get to know me. They never want to go anywhere with me but as soon as my cousin says store or something they're out the door. My sister hates it here and I'm just thinking, if you hate it so much go back to Georgia. She claims she moved here to be closer to me and my mom, but ever since her and her husband have been here, all we do is fight or get attitudes with each other. There are good times, but the bad usually outways the good. I feel so lonely all the time, it's getting harder and harder not to cry myself to sleep at night and to stay strong. I just feel like the world would be better off if I wasn't here taking up air and space that could be used for someone more useful, I'll never amount to much anyway. I've never been the smartest, definintely have never been the prettiest, and I'm constantly annoying people. Before you start to worry, I'm not going to do anything stupid like kill myself, just sometimes I think everything is better on the other side. Sometimes I wish I wasn't born into this family. I guess everybody feels this way at some point, I have for a while now, things just never seem to get better though. If they do something always has to ruin it for everyone. Don't take this too seriously, I just had to get my feelings out before I blow up and kill somebody after holding it all in :p